Tuesday, June 13, 2006
; last thing on my mind
You sent me this song Win. Do you remember?
You're online on my list, but you're not talking to me. Are you too busy with your Wowing, or are you just plain ignoring me, so as not to lead me on?
I miss talking to you. I miss seeing your window flashing at 5:53am in the morning. Even the texts I sent, though you reply them, they're so cold, and straight to the point.
Whatever happened to us?
I've just moved you up in my groups. Right below mine, *angel from above.
It's difficult, trying to act all happy and chirpy when the lonliness is raging so fiercely within. But I refuse to let it out. I don't wanna bore the friends with my endless emo-ness. I get tired of it. They get tired of it too. This is my only private space to whine as much as I want now..
Jiayi was so suprised when she heard that I was fond of you. "Why Alwin?!" with this look of utter astonishment and bewilderment. And when we talked about compatibilty, she was like.. "Not really." Panic attack for me, "Why, am I not pretty enough?" ): but she went "No, he's not good looking enough for you."
People have been telling me, they don't think you're worth it.
Wanwin is firm on her stand though. She wants me to tell you how I feel, and not give up on you. But.. to throw myself at you.. I can't make myself do that. The sting of rejection is something I'm afraid to go through again. What if I can't pick myself up one more time?
The trouble is, to risk nothing at all, is to risk everything.
Adam told me he's in love with me today. Out of the blue, though I did suspect something along those lines. Still, he said nothing at all and his outburst today was startling.
Would it matter to you? Or would you just shrug it off?
I wish you would care, but at the same time, the thought of another Jiahao episode worries me. Until now you've never admitted what it was about Jiahao that upsetted you.
When will you tell me Win?
Is it because of jealousy? Just plain jealousy that your friend was getting close to another friend you acquainted her with, or the green eyed monster because there are deeper feelings than platonic involved?
I won't know if you don't tell me.
You sent me this song Win. Do you remember?
You're online on my list, but you're not talking to me. Are you too busy with your Wowing, or are you just plain ignoring me, so as not to lead me on?
I miss talking to you. I miss seeing your window flashing at 5:53am in the morning. Even the texts I sent, though you reply them, they're so cold, and straight to the point.
Whatever happened to us?
I've just moved you up in my groups. Right below mine, *angel from above.
It's difficult, trying to act all happy and chirpy when the lonliness is raging so fiercely within. But I refuse to let it out. I don't wanna bore the friends with my endless emo-ness. I get tired of it. They get tired of it too. This is my only private space to whine as much as I want now..
Jiayi was so suprised when she heard that I was fond of you. "Why Alwin?!" with this look of utter astonishment and bewilderment. And when we talked about compatibilty, she was like.. "Not really." Panic attack for me, "Why, am I not pretty enough?" ): but she went "No, he's not good looking enough for you."
People have been telling me, they don't think you're worth it.
Wanwin is firm on her stand though. She wants me to tell you how I feel, and not give up on you. But.. to throw myself at you.. I can't make myself do that. The sting of rejection is something I'm afraid to go through again. What if I can't pick myself up one more time?
The trouble is, to risk nothing at all, is to risk everything.
Adam told me he's in love with me today. Out of the blue, though I did suspect something along those lines. Still, he said nothing at all and his outburst today was startling.
Would it matter to you? Or would you just shrug it off?
I wish you would care, but at the same time, the thought of another Jiahao episode worries me. Until now you've never admitted what it was about Jiahao that upsetted you.
When will you tell me Win?
Is it because of jealousy? Just plain jealousy that your friend was getting close to another friend you acquainted her with, or the green eyed monster because there are deeper feelings than platonic involved?
I won't know if you don't tell me.
joviee's musings at 5:53:00 AM
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